Updated: Apr 21
School was something that happened in the background of high school. I honestly was just trying to survive. At my suburban high school in Sandy, Utah, there were a lot of hot boys, a lot of drugs, and a lot of distraction.
I was 14 when I entered High School in 10th grade. I remember getting hit on by 18 year old guys thinking: "Bro, are you a student or a grown ass man? I'm still watching the Disney Channel."
On the first day of school,
I'll never forget it. There was a large group of guys crowding the corner table of our cafeteria "quad" looking, cheering, and rating the "hot" girls as they walked by. I tried to avoid it, but I had a locker right by the table. Within 10 seconds, I got a "Damn, girl! You're teasin' me in that skirt! She's pretending to ignore me. I know you can hear me!" I could... I just didn't want to.
High School was a hunting ground that sorted the wheat from the chafe. Almost instantly, students divided into clicks - separated by sins and common interests. The clearest division: Sports, drugs, sex, and academics. In a more simple equation: Mormons and not-Mormons.
We all socialized at school, but after hours...
My girlfriends and I'd get lit at the Friday night football games. We'd walk the bleachers, meet a ton of people, and get invited to the after parties. Our football team had all-star players and all-star parties everywhere from ramblers to mansions in the mountains. Any time, any one's parents were out of town, that house was the party.
A high school party in the state of Utah is a total sausage fest. TONS of guys, 1 -2 groups of girls, and 3 essential elements: Booze, weed, and rap music. At the time, Lil' Jon was all the rage.
50 Cent made his debut.
Outkast released Speakerboxx and The Love Below.
& Kelis dropped "Milkshake" (which I hated at first, but overtime, this song hexed it's way into my heart).
From parties to car rides, music shaped the best memories of my high school experience. My girlfriends and I would pile into our only 16 Year Old friend's car, drive to "Club dub" aka Wendy's, eat junk food, and listen to songs on the radio. If Chingy's "One Call Away" came on, I'd shut the conversation down. I just LOVED that song! I loved repeating the words like I was from a part of the country where it was perfectly fine to pronounce things like: "It was wurrrd how we met, huhh?! She was wit her ma in Bank Americuhh wit ma son cashin' a check!"
Listening to rap music taught me that it's a lot better to be a pimp than a ho. It also taught me that it's ok to fornicate because song is talking about it. I began to conduct myself more like a male rapper than the rap music video ho, and it changed my persona. More importantly, it changed the way I handled the senior boys.
Whenever I walked past that table, anytime, any boy shouted something at me, I shouted back: "YOU fine!" "Nigga, please!" or "You ugly, ho!" I got a breadstick thrown at me for the last one. Instead of being scared or offended, I took control and made fun of the situation.
I got a lot of attention from the Senior boys and I liked it. I liked that they liked me, and I liked that it was innocent. However, there's a big difference between the mind of an 18 Year old guy and a 14 year old girl, and I wish I didn't have to learn that lesson the hard way.