Updated: May 22, 2020
@ the age of 25,
I imagined having more money.
I at least imagined having more than a cast on my wrist and $2 in the bank.
@ the age of 25?! I, for sure, thought I’d have a house and some assets.
Real life, 25...
I had a wounded spirit and $2 in my bank account,
I was broke AF and moving back to my parents for the 11th time.
I knew I had to make a change.
On a cloudy, emerald green mountain day,
I was riding the train through Salt Lake looking at the mountains. Looking at all the mansions, thinking about Mormons and mansions. Obviously, Mormons need space for all their kids, but there's a lot of mansions in Utah. Is there a correlation between Mormons and mansions? Spiritual and financial wealth? I looked it up and The Wasatch Front has one of the highest concentration of mansions in the USA in Salt Lake, Provo, and Ogden. Despite Mormons needing space, I just couldn't deny the hard work behind it. The luck. The opportunity. The prosperity of the people.
Mormons are prosperous people.
Some are broke AF, but MOST work real hard and provide.
I believe in the equal treatment of men and women, but if a man wanted to open my door and provide for my life, I'd let him. I'm LOVE him! I'd really appreciate it, actually.
I can get down with a Mormon provider. I can keep an open mind to traditional roles! The man provides. The woman is a Nuturer. I believe it's best to equally work and nurture for both, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there. I'm down to try anything... Almost anything.
True to the Faith Mormons are excellent. The men are everything I (never knew) dream in a man: Good. Clean. Nice. Pure. Strong. You have your hokey Mormons, and you have your baller Mormons. Baller Mormons work hard and boss up. Hard work is attractive. Mormon men, for the most part, are attractive. They're blonde hair, blue eyed people that work hard.
Busy like a bee.
Hard work pays.
Money is an essential part of our lives and having it provides more reassurance than not having it. My first positive thought about The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saint Mormons was: They're rich. They're prosperous.
They pay 10% tithing and believe it comes back 10 fold. I can get down with that. I'm down with charity. I love being charitable, and I love that Mormons are prepared.
They're always preparing for Armageddon. They're always preparing for an emergency. It can be a fire, earthquake, job, or the 2nd coming of Christ, boys are raised to Eagle Scouts and live the motto "Always Be Prepared!" I understand that 10% of the tithing goes to programs to aid local and global crisis. Personally, Emma was the recipient of weekly groceries from the Bishop's Storehouse. The church also helped her with monthly rent checks while encouraging self-reliance.
I love genealogy. Learning more about my ancestors
Joseph Smith is a hard pill to swallow.
I was open to change, I just didn’t want to change the Mormon way. Not one final product (mormon) lived a life I aspired to be. I looked up “famous Mormons” and the best I could find was Donny and Marie. Maybe Jules and Derek Hough? I share the important beliefs about the investing quality time in your family, but no Mormon lives a life I aspire. All the men are balding and the women look stressed. I understand the path of God is narrow, but does it have to come with this compromise?
I was open to trying new things, but still very skeptical of the church.
I still had questions about the church and I didn't have answers. Like, Joseph Smith, polygamy, the blacks, and the patriarchy. All these things I opposed, I somehow found myself gravitate towards. I was moving towards the church with the E brake on.
I agreed to the Law of Chastity. I agreed that "I am a daughter of Heavenly Father, who loves me." I do have faith in His eternal plan, and I do believe that Jesus Christ is my savior.
I had beliefs about God, but nothing solid. I could continue my current beliefs "to be a decent human". I'm just not convinced that's working out. I could try to be Mormon? Oh God, please don't. What do I have to lose by believing in the story of Jesus Christ?
"Faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true." Alma 32:21